A few days before my birthday, I decided I wanted to do a session in our new temple on my birthday. I made my reservation and when the day came, I drove about 3 blocks away before I realized I didn't have my recommend. I always have my recommend. Just not today. Trying to keep it short, by the time I found it and ran from the car, the brother at the desk told me I'd missed my session. :( He said that their was work to do on the third floor, if I wanted to participate. I got dressed and went up. I was told that that work was finished and they didn't have another group at the moment. I walked back to my cubicle and had a little cry. I WAS ONE OF THE FIVE FOOLISH VIRGINS!!!! I missed my chance because I wasn't prepared! It felt awful. I thought, "today? I have to learn a lesson TODAY? It's my birthday!!!" Thankfully there was some work I could do by the changing room. It turned out to be a great experience and I wondered if that was what I was supposed to do all along. But next time I will be sooooo ready!
Now for foolisher: for a year or so after I got out of my back brace, when things were hard, I wished to be back in the hospital bed here at home, out of it on pain meds. I haven't thought that for a long time. But today, I felt overwhelmed and it happened again--wishing I was incapacitated physically and mentally. CRAZY. That was a dumb thought and I repented of it.
Even foolisher, I am going to have a booth at the Christmas Bazaar at the senior center. I am making Christmas jewelry. I know, what am I thinking?!?!?!?
